Have you ever asked the question: "Is God enough?"
My first reaction to this question is: "Of course He is!"
However, every time I choose my own way instead of surrendering to His way, my actions show that I'm not really sure God's enough.
* Is He really enough to carry my pain?
* Is He really enough to change my loved ones?
* Is He really enough to be in charge of how I spend every minute of every day?
* Is He really enough to lead me right every time, all the time?
* Does He love enough?
* Is He good enough?
The resounding answer is YES! Of course He is!!
So why is it so hard to surrender to Him?
Oh, if only I had an easy answer. But after focusing on surrendering to God for years now, I have found out that it is much more complex than I ever thought. I've also discovered that the more I desire to surrender, the more my selfish, self-centered, self-gratification-seeking flesh fights it. I have fed my flesh too regularly and that's why it rears its ugly head.
I'm reminded of Paul's lament about his struggle with the war between the flesh and the Spirit:
I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. ~Romans 7:19-21